I know I usually rant about petty things about med school, but this time, I’m thinking about the world. I have mixed thoughts about it. I don’t really know what to think. Despite the busyness, for the first time, scrolling Facebook has done some good because it has kept me informed about the world.
It reminded me of something my mom said which came from the Bible, from Matthew 24:
Jesus answered: “Watch out that no one deceives you. For many will come in my name, claiming, ‘I am the Messiah,’ and will deceive many. You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains.
It’s not the first time something terrible has happened to the world. Terrible things happen every day. I live in a country where it’s not generally safe to walk outside at night. I’m not saying the end of the world is nearing (though it may be; I’m convinced it is nearing). Recent events merely reminded me of those verses.
Of course, my initial response was to get scared. I didn’t want to be blown up by terrorists (many of whom presumably live in my country), especially since I have yet to fulfill my dreams. But that reason kinda sucks. Everything that’s happening is beyond me. All I know is that I’m sad and scared of the world. I’m sad about how broken it is, and I’m scared to face it. Especially since the verses continue like this:
“Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me. At that time many will turn away from the faith and will betray and hate each other, and many false prophets will appear and deceive many people. Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but the one who stands firm to the end will be saved. And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.
I’ve always believed this world is broken, but God loves us despite it all. I experienced it. I know Him. I have a relationship with Him. I’ve come to realize I’m not perfect, but He is. Though I can never be perfect, His grace is everlasting. I can always ask for forgiveness, but of course, I also pray every day for me to change, to help me choose Him every day. What I’m saying may sound complex and broad at the same time, but really, it started with my approaching Him, talking to Him, making that extra effort to pray, and then, it just became effortless. He was a part of every minute of my life. It was not an obligation or a chore. I enjoyed talking to Him. I found inexplicable joy at the thought that He loved me. I discovered that one of the best reasons He is worthy to be praised is because He loves those who aren’t worthy of it, people like me. He loves when I simply can’t. He loves to the point that He gave His Son to die for us. Imagine if Jesus didn’t die on that cross. Imagine if He hadn’t conquered death. Imagine if He just told us He could do it because He’s God but He actually did not? My goodness, that was the greatest sacrifice ever. I remember that every time I am hostile towards someone – Jesus gave His life up for me, for people who didn’t love Him, for people who didn’t dare look at Him, or worst: for people who hated Him. All we really have to do is accept that love. I didn’t have anything to lose.
I just hope He helps me overcome my fears, especially those of this world, and that in everything I do, I will be reminded of Him, and that everything I do will actually be for Him and His glory.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” John 16:33